These are not regets, but of your obsession.

POTD : Days with Me

I was woken up from a kitten's nonstop crying. I guessed it was nearby our house that morning, wishfully thinking that if it happens to cross our front gate I'll grab it. Noon, it started to cry again I followed the noise leading to our kitchenette/storage area.

Just its distant crying noise, I guessed it was at our neighbor's backyard. Crying continues, went to the kitchenette to hear the kitten. I was bothered so I finally told my mum. "I didnt hear any" then she excused it was probably the kettle hissing.

"But it started this morning !" I rejected the idea. Next was the passing pajero, which was making the same sound. Haha. Mom said " or maybe that vehicle? " then again " It started since this morning!!!" We were clueless if I was delusional, paranoid or what.

With the unfruitful discussion from my mum, I headed back to the place. This time I heard scratches inside the ceiling! Panick, Delusions and Paranoia kicked in so I hurriedly call mum to hear it herself. " Maaaa!!!! Storage area!! Hurry!!! "

Despite of my calls, she calmly approached me. Quietly staring at the ceiling board above us, the cries and scratches begun. Mom in disbelief " We cannot possibly have a kitten crying inside that!" and continued " Big mouse, dear. " 

There's no way that is a mouse! Too Long, Short. We have to wait for father to come home and deal with the odds that day, which he did. Few obstacles inside the non-air ventilated ceiling, two kittens were rescued.

We immediately nursed the kitties. Dog swarmed in ancestry. It was funny, they were curious and alarmed! I am taking care of them ATM. I dont know what will happen to them. We cannot really housed cats inside the house. 

I have pet dogs since I was 5. I have no knowledge how to determine their gender, when to feed them, why do they cry??!!! Do you wanna eat? cuddle? roll? what??! I am fond of watching cat videos but, newly born kittens do not necessarily does those contents. 

PS: The next day the mother cat dropped off three additional kittens on the family.

POTD : Days with Me (2)

I woke up at 8, she was lying lifelessly.

How long have she been crying for help? I dont know.

She was getting cold, so bathe her sunlight.

Pumping her mid belly, massaging to find where it hurts but I failed.

Two hours pumping her non stop, she struggles.

Then She struggled, it was worth fighting for someone who doesnt need salvation.

Someone deserves a hand to help if that person wanted to live.

I asked you to take her to the hospital... you gave me the lame excuses!

I was pumping for two hours, then the third hour came.

***

One,

she pushed me away.

Second,

she cried.

Third,

she grsped for air.

Fourth,

she stopped breathing.

She can no longer moved her arms, straigthened,

ants started to circle her, flies rested on me.

Fifth,

I laid her down then she groanned like her last.

***

She began to count, while I prayed harder.

Make promises, reminisces;

one, two and three.... breathing like she had drowned...

one, she can no longer speak

two, she can no longer blink

three, she can no longer breathe

Her dead body on my sweaty hands, glistened under the bright spotlights..

" Come back quickly, I'll treat you well. so come back. "

One, Warm hands begun to let go.

Two, Tears begun to fell.

Three, Lifelessly said goodbye to her morning clock.

Dont say life left easily... because there are people fighting to stay.

Can not shout the name I haven't given up.

Letter 015 : Baby, I'm Hollow

There's a light passing through your chest.
You do not feel heavy yet you cannot cry.
All those guilty thoughts, how to make them solidify?
Built them like a pyramid,
Standing on a greater visions of life?

Day 00 : The Great Seducer

The Great Seducer : A pre-review

- How can a game of tag is too political?

It seemed I went to a line of a ferris wheel with deep ship ride. 

POTD : Days with Me (1)

So my kitten meows non stop.

Wikihow suggested : to feed her, pet her,

groom her, play with her.

lastly talk to her.

Talking to the fucken kitty works!!

I feel too overwhelmed at the same time feelin cheated.

why does it work? ow low deep voice works. 

I dont get cats. 

Lately Im finding myself to easily get annoyed with my father's actions. I really feel bad with my responses to him. I wonder if it's just the weather? I hope, there would not be a time when I'll treat him like what Ive did with mum.

Such a failure, myself.

Tsk. Tsk.

Poet Theme : Beyond

POETHEME 229 : BEYOND

Dedication : #StephenHawking 

He didnt left his chair but he defied gravity!
"Be curious."
but Do not left your chair
yet Leave your pen.
Get lost in thoughts.
Express those words.
Resist the context - far better than beyond.

src : [1] [2]

Cheatcodes

You're looking back

while chasing someone at the front.

Dream : To defy the zero line.

Dreamt about a snake, big one, people are throwing things at it. It had eaten a dog and cats are surrounding it. People panicked. but before I finished this dream, almost on its climax, the bedroom window banged heavily in reality. Continuing to sleep from the window wake, we met at some school. It was a high place. A cliff? not so much. I cant remember if it was an art exhibit... but I continued to follow him. Moreover, I always find myself in the same space. People start to notice, and once again I ate the courage. Telling ... to take another chance. You accepted it. Idk if I was glad for the opportunity, but I continued to fill the role. I am inlove with you. For so long.

Always dreaming. Casting reality.

I hate myself. But I love you still.

But I wouldnt cross the line, unless we meet each other.

Breathing in reality.

Even if you're the guy I do not know to define.

I'll gladly take you off the zero line.

Poet Theme : Yellow

Let misfortunes run.
Give me the life blinding sun.
Quickly. Save Me!

Mess Me.

Laugh with me.

Cry for me.

Stay for a moment.

Wipe those golden minute torments.
Outside that store leave everything I ask you to.
Quickly love me as if I intended to walk with you.

The city and people continues.

the youth stucked in their dreams.