There are songs not written on score sheets.

Nor the truths printed on newspaper scripts.

Nor the President's services, we daily tell their addressed bullshits.

Will someone humbly apologize to him after his term?

[Letter013] : Overseas Filipino Workers

Fishtails should've bigger brains!

So people learnt to fly.

Born from men of the seas left their monopolized land.

You said you'll bring us tomorrow.

You said there is a brighter future!

But our children learnt as they grow, that

Achievements lodges Overseas.

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I've heard that our Mayor rejected to renew the small bancas' permit to fish. I belong to the third generation of the last man to fish our bay. For the last two years as I visited my granma's house, I always managed to idly visit the bay and burnt the flashes of nostalgia. The place wasnt as festive. The place was dying. Rejecting their permits would even extinguish our ancestry. We were born fishermen. The second generation saw there is fruitless labour and became practical. They left and went overseas. My last concern lies how the government sees us. Does he see out of 10 families, 9 of them have their parent earning money out of the country? His family has been sitting for almost 2 decades (as far as I can remember) and how grave the end-results of your services were.

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There are things we see but we wouldnt execute. The men of the seas deserve better.

 

Day018 : Super Moon

    Many things happened last night. My brother in his last match this season (basketball), ended up getting a dislocated shoulder.


I loved how my father got his enthusiam like a passionate coach , half-half. He is passionate in basketball, coach? nah. He's good at watching. Anyways, since it was laste.. they (with mum) had to hurry to a nearest boutique and buy a pain killer. I was left with my younger brother at home and had to tend the ice pack once it hits each 20 minutes on his shoulder. 10 pm hitting the clock, unexpectedly, our street have a blackout. Was about to force to go outside.


It was like we have a giant light bulb in the sky. It lightened up the surrounding but its light wasnt about hurting. The night sky was calm to look at. I was hugging Johnsuke, a ready-warm-hugging-blanket. There are many things we take granted for.

The moon grew jealous. He absorbed all the electricity, forcing you to watch him last night.

#FinishedWatching : Nanimono (Somebody)

The storms of life is easier than of your home. You wont be shooting karma blindlessly. No one will care, but enough to carry your feet paving the way to contentment.

I am a fan of Takeru Sato and Suda Masaki, so when I heard they are doing movies together I was quite hyped and immediately expecting big coming from them. While familiar faces were also added to the team of protagonists such as, Fumi Nikaidô as Rika and Masaki Okada as Takayoshi.

The story clicks about people under common goal (to get hired by a company). The stigma of the movie exists in present time, specially to the first millenials. Each characters represent phantoms and commonalty. It has a strong script including its metaphor,simile and irony. I found myself very familiar with everything about the movie.

I chose to change my priorities under reality-demanding circumstances, I lived two-face, I freely chose to be go-lucky, and even too controlling about my philosophies. Everyone of the characters have a part of me and the feeling aftermath was scary and eye-opening.

I think that the minimal issue about this film is invisibility. Portraying the unportrayable.

( Takuto's cause which was the issue about his theatre-friend ) The movie is the exact opposite of "The Kirishima Thing" which the issue lies "when Kirishima left". That something have happened, but we cant show you since this isnt the main focus.

I cannot find the exact words to explain this further.

The execution is sewn beautifully. The reveal is its climax and its ending. Marking its identity. Its poetic by being straightforward with the answers. It is something I would rewatch to get new perspective and opinions about life.  Truly impressive.

We are proud of our own assets but life before you has been sober at reality failures. You were caught by the tide.

 

#FinishedWatching : Bad Genius (Thai)

 Remember, school is a place for studying, not making money.

Day 017: Chasing Deer Lights

So this entry should be put before the Day 018, due to my lack sense of duty it rotten in the drafts blank and unwritten. My September entry was 0 too, so I'll try my best to remember what happened till November.

After we fetched my cousin at the MIA I've attended quite a few of family gathering for his welcome. Received KitKat as usual.

One instance, there was 1 left from the kitkat box I saved inside the fridge. When I went to find it, I discovered my brother already eaten it few days ago. Weeks after, he put his cookie oreo chocolate inside the fridge "Ah! Revenge." but of course I didnt mean it that way. I just happened to crave the thing so I ate it. When he found out I ate it, I've never seen his displeased poker face. It seems that the chocolate was given by his girlfriend to eat. HAHAHAHAH~ The next month, October, I didnt dare to eat that bar. The guilt!

September to October tolled heavy for my stomach since I cannot deny myself to the blessings of food offerings from friends and cousins. Free food! Free meal! but the impression of being a freeloader to them as well added behind my thinkings. Didnt you say years ago that you dont feel happy when you take "free" things? such as meals? I said to myself. Sitting beside the large window panels across the crowded room never felt shameless as this. Two reasons to why, first - you should not deny food on your plate, second - Im stucked at the house for hours, days, and weeks doing the same rotten things so I might as well take the chance to get out of the house. But of course, I did reject some too specially from men.

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Among those was my ex, he have been persistent about redeeming our good pale relationship for the past years. Unluckily, his persistence landed on my left side and I finally snapped. I contacted with my ex#3 whom I only have good relationship since we broke up. His side was essential, as my ex his vision "as an ex" how to break all the connections without getting him butthurt. I know it was impossible to begin with, but if there's a chance I would grab it. So I asked him, same time Roro happened to be online... I early left the conversation about my ex and focused on Roro. Im lucky to have her. 

Im always thankful that you love me for whatever the other people say are my flaws. You've always seen things in details as I have been watching over you. I hope we would get there. I want us to deserve acceptance and happiness.

[ PoTD ] Summit